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recuperating
I am currently in no mans land. Not working, not playing.
I was ordered to take it slow after being rushed to A&E following an episode of Supra-Ventricular-Tachycardia. I can’t really remember it very well but I’ve been told that my heart rate was 210-230 for over an hour…not good.
I have got to say that the paramedics and the hospital team were amazing at Kings Mill Hospital at Mansfield. They really looked after me and now I’m on the road to recovery. I’m awaiting an appointment with a specialist consultant, to find out what made my heart race so fast…(Gerard Butler? Sh! NO!) My appointment is on Christmas Eve. So we’ll know more then.
Maybe that’s the results of living in overdrive for 6 months
Here’s hoping…
A xo
6 Months in Overdrive
OK OK…I know it’s been a while! But it’s been all systems go over the last 6 months and I just haven’t had a chance to sit down and put my thoughts into coherent sentences.
In the past 6 months I have: graduated university, moved ‘back home’, moved in with my boyfriend (a whole different ball game to living with students!), started a new job (Oo the challenges!) and raising a menagerie…before I know it, it’s Christmas!!
I had no idea how difficult it would be to re-tune myself to the real world after leaving university. The first few months were great. I had independence, motivation and a smug qualification under my belt. I was ready to start a new chapter in my life, be a grown up and worry about all the grown up things in the world. But I couldn’t help feeling sad when September came around and I was hearing about all the students returning to uni, and thinking “That was me.” — emphasis on the was. But is that enough to push me back into academic life? Missing it. I don’t think I miss student life, partying, or even the student loan (well, maybe a little!) I actually missed learning more than all of that. For a while, it was hard to get excited about my job. Then after slapping myself a few times, shouting to my reflection in my rear-view mirror “SO! WHAT ARE YA GONNA DO?!” I decided to push myself into learning at work (which is called training…) It helped, a lot.
All I have to tackle now, is living with a boy. No one quite prepares you for it. The toilet seat is always up, there’s always a sturdy supply of Ginsters pasties in the fridge, and there’s no way to compromise on what’s on the tele. It’s a work-in-progress, but it’s workin’. Result.
In may this year, I rescued a feral kitten from a farm. He’s fuzzy and wild and his eyes were bright blue. I named him Blue. Three weeks after moving house and he still wasn’t taming down. My colleagues were starting to think I was self-harming with all the scratched and cuts on my hands and forearms, he was all claws. Then, I had a spark of genius. I thought that if we got an older cat, it would teach him how to behave and also be abit of company. Squirrel appeared in my life. She can open doors and tries to hold a conversation, she even buries her toys! The aim was for her to tame Blue. Did she? She tried. We now have three cats. Treacle is our third. I call her Oddball. You have no idea how disconcerting it is to have a kitten eye ball you across the room. And her eyes are so dark, it’s like she really is evil…plotting my demise…I’m getting a dog.
I have also braved the controversy and cut all my hair off, grade 3. To some people, mainly women, I am a pioneer to the feminists of our nation, to others I’m a wannabe lesbian. Whatever that means! I don’t understand how cutting your hair can cause so much conflict in society. It was supposed to be a liberating experience to shed all my issues and ‘lay bare’, without having an emo fringe or a curtain of hair to hide behind. However, all it did was cause all my friends to ask me if I was OK, was I having a (early) mid life crisis, would I start protesting at Downing Street or wailing at the Church like Joan of Arc. Well, to answer all these questions… I am OK, there’s no midlife crisis till I’m 40 and Yes, I will always stand up for what I believe in. I’d like to think of Joan of Arc as a kick-ass role model. So there.
A xo
Be Still
In life, it’s hard to remember what’s important. There are a thousand-million things going on at any one point and it’s easy to lose sight of things that matter.
Take the time to meet your friends for a good catch-up, make that phone-call to your mom,write a letter to that family member you’ve not seen in years. Take time to just sit quietly for a minute, think about yourself.. are you happy? Remember: it’s good to have “me-time”.
So next time you’re feeling lost or things are just too damn hectic, put the kettle on and just be still.
Trust me, you’ll feel loads better for it.
A xo
My dad’s response to the troll
“tell the troll to go back under the bridge with her mates..lots of water there”
Classic.
A xo
B&B
If you have read my previous blogs you will have read about my troubles with our troll-like housemate (we have nicknamed her ‘Troll’ because a) she looks like one b) she must smell bad due to numerous showers and c) she talks like one) This is chapter 2 on this issue. enjoy….
So…. at the minute it would appear that we are currently running a free B&B service here at our student house.
THE TROLL has decided it is appropriate to have people staying over within a week of each other. This, I don’t mind but they don’t contribute anything to bills and they’re having a few showers each day (cos they smell bad) and they’re cooking their own food. On top of this, she’s leaving them alone while she fucks about at uni.. charging their phones, inviting whoever they want round. Jesus..it’s not a friggin’ free for all love!!
She’s got this seriously ignorant side to her as well…she never talks to us. Never even utters a sentence in our presence ………………………………………………………….until she fucking needs something. Like, she can’t afford to pay her bills on time, or she’s “cold” — baring in mind that she walks around in summer tops most of the time (mong).
We are now taking bookings for next week, feel free to take advantage of all the free electric gas and nice hot running water coz we dont have to pay bills at all…. im sure 5 of u in that little room is incredibly comfortable….
please call 0800 free-4-troll-friends. Pfft!
Keep you posted guys.. A xo
p.s. she also goes by the alias — “The Cretin”.. ya hear that name…run
Finally.
When one is stood at a cross-roads it is very easy to panic. It’s great if you’ve got it all planned out and a 5 year life plan.. however if you’re like me & have got no clue — don’t worry! You’re not alone. It’s hard to know exactly where you’re headed..which is why I have a list of ‘options’ (after a week of anxious pondering and stressful conversations) finally.
After a very frank, but rewarding talk with my better-half, I have decided that I’ve done enough studying in my life for now and it’s time to try something new. I’m moving back to my roots and I’m going to look for a job where I can try and make a difference! Even if I have to volunteer, I’m gonna give it a go.
I’m going to start living in the now and stop wishing my life away. After-all, I’m only 21.. and there’s still loads to come right?
It’s taken me a few wrong turns to realise what I want out of my life, but finally I’ve got there! As long as I’m with the people I love, I figure the rest should all fall into place 🙂
Here’s hoping…
A xo
Burning the candle at both ends? Mine has melted completely.
But when you realise you’ve taken too much on in your life and need a breather, that’s when the difficulties start to become apparent.
Recently, I have started a placement at a mental healthcare facility, which hopefully will boost my postgrad applications immensely. I also have a part-time job that’s paying my way through university. 20hours a week might not sound an awfully big chunk of time, but it is alongside fulltime lectures and seminars. As it’s my 3rd year, my undergraduate dissertation is well underway, a massive 10,000 word document that gets bound and is prestigous. Needless to say, that part of my degree would be going alot smoother if I had a dissertation supervisor that could manage his emails and respond to mine… alas.. “busy busy!” is all the reply i get.
[Gee thanks…just state the obvious!]
I’ve also decided it would be a genius idea to get a head start on postgrad applications — (no aimee..it’s not) and to be brutally honest with you guys..i’m scared shitless about it! It’s not the concept of doing the masters..it’s the fact that i’ll no longer be in academia properly and I will then be viewed as a grown-up.
SO you have found me sat in front of my laptop, staring blankly at the screen deliberating over my future. All I can think of is ringing him. To hear his voice and feel it calm my outraged nerves and tell me everything is going to be alright.
If you are going through a similar stage in your life, where it feels like you’re constantly fighting for a break and you seem to be drowning in all the jobs left on your to-do list. Where you wake up in a cold sweat in the middle of the night screaming from a nightmare where you’ve turned up late and sat the wrong exam or you forgot to get dressed because you were so worried about your interview. And you’re so stressed that you’ve bitten your nails right down, don’t panic..we’ve all had moments like that.
But if it happens that you have someone who offers that calm that you seem to crying out for….you’re lucky. Never let go of that.
If I miss my deadlines and my alarm doesnt go off and I fail all my exams.. if I have nothing else…I have him and I am grateful for that.
A xo
Teething problems
So far, our student house has had little upsets. It was all quiet on Newington Rd, until late October.
An 18 year old girl has such little consideration for 3rd year students. She invites people over to stay for days on end, they help themselves to gas, electric, food, showers, everything — i mean.. the bills add up ya know?!
Next, some random guy turns up at gone midnight and she doesnt even understand why i’d have a problem with this!
Following this, I thought it would be constructive to have a house meeting….which turned into a 20 minute rant towards me about ‘mothering’ her……. er i dont think so!
A week later (after we thought things were all sorted) a girl turns up at our door with a suitcase. Housemate turns her ‘attitude mode’ on full and expresses that we shouldnt have to be told and we shouldnt have a problem with it. Really?!
Now…after we the incidents have occurred, it has been overheard that the reason we have a problem with all these unexpected visits is due to race. She could not be more wrong.
Surely, the next logical step would be to inform the landlady of the problems we have been having. We have a lack of response and she just down-play our problems, like you would a child’s falling out.
And so..understandably, things are a little tense in this house but hopefully things will turn out all right in the end.
Watch this space. A xo
Cut the cuts
First of all, the university is well known for it’s social sciences and philosophy departments, what has it got to gain from cutting the course? Money. It has left staff that are involved in this course out of work, the current students frustrated by this solution and future students; left with no other option than to apply to a different university.Have we been told why higher authorities have come to this decision? I think not.
This blogger has heard that there may be further cuts through out the uni, including in the social sciences department.
It has been known that the Media course has been flitted out, only after investing on tons of new facilities that will now be useless (facilities including the brand new 3-D room!) Why??
There is now a new society at the university of Northampton. It’s sole aim?? To get the Philosophy courses back in the prospectus!
Sign the petition today & get involved.
http://www.facebook.com/pages/Keep-the-Philosophy-Department-at-Northampton-U…
A xo

