my Fentanyl Muse


I woke up on Wednesday morning with this poem in my head and when I put pen to paper the words just flew across the page. This came out of nowhere! Children’s poetry isn’t usually my thing and the only explanation I can come up with is; it must be drug-induced creativity.

I have recently been given Fentanyl patches as a form of pain relief for my severe and soul-crushing Endometriosis pain. This is the 2nd cycle using this patch and both times something freaky has happened. And it’s not even Friday!

After doing some online research, I found out that Fentanyl is 50-100x stronger than Morphine. So it’s no wonder I’m going bat-shit crazy! It’s been a struggle to hit the right keys, to form sentences and to even get out of bed, but I felt compelled to share this ray of sunshine with you! How could I not?

easter bunny poem


Too beautiful not to share

I need someone

who knows struggle

as well as I do


willing to hold my feet in their lap

on days it is too difficult to stand

the type of person who gives

exactly what I need

before I even know I need it

the type of lover who hears me

even when I do not speak

is the type of understanding

I demand


-the type of lover I need

By Rupi Kaur, milk & honey

Champneys Heavenly Days Sleep Kit

Where? Boots.

How much? £12

I bought the temple balm over 2 weeks ago, as I have been having trouble sleeping through the night, and if I don’t get my 8 hours, I’m a crypt-keeper in the mornings. I was struck by how soothing the scent of the temple balm was; a combination of lavender, geranium and other English garden scents. I love the smell. The texture of the balm is smooth and blends into the skin without being sticky, melts easily though so be careful where you store it!

After a week of just using this, I was yet to see the benefits. But was optimistic so, I decided to buy the gift set.

Price point-wise, it was great. I got a massive bottle of pillow mist, the same amount of balm as well as a high-quality eye mask all for this low price (plus my Boots Advantage Card points!)

The Pillow Mist has a slightly different scent but it lingers on the bed linens for a while & I seemed to instantly calm after inhaling it. Right from the first time I used these products, it was obvious to me that it was luxurious and well-thought-out but affordable.

However, is it affective at helping me sleep? Great products, but I am yet to feel the benefit of using them. I think this is more than likely due to my personal circumstances at this time- my head’s a shed & unfortunately there’s not a quick-fix or £12 that can sort my issues.

I must say though; my husband loves this stuff. Each night, I just rub the balm into his pulse points (wrists, neck, temples) and 5 minutes later he’s sock on! And this, my friends, is a beast who has tried sleeping tablets and must take muscle relaxants (as part of a regular medication to ease cluster headaches). Miracle? Well, Champneys must be doing something right!

Have you tried this?

Have you had trouble sleeping? If so, what helped you?




| October Favourites |


I love LOVE Autumn. It makes journeys prettier, hot drinks a necessity and a scarf so so cosy. The best thing about being a blogger during Autumn is seeing all the wonderful updates via social media. Pinterest is aglow with burnt oranges and reds, I can’t blink for pumpkin patch pictures and it’s all so great to see everyone trying to win the prize for best Halloween costume! Above, are just a few of the pictures from the past month- but Winter is definitely coming!

Speaking of Autumn, a different Autumn has captured my attention on Twitter. Chronically Chill aka @autumnjduncan has a sharp wit & a fab sense of humour. From one chronically ill lady to another- BRAVO!



I want Michelle Obama to be President. Being from the UK, a lot of the politics across the pond is lost on me as their campaign videos are live during the hours when I’m (usually) sleeping. But this woman’s strength, drive & compassion for American people is not lost on this Brit. I have watched her speech about 4 times now and she gets me every time. What a speech?! Mrs Obama knows how to reach the crowd and hits the nail on the head with every syllable. Some of her speech, I could even use to describe some of my experiences with chronic illness.



Click to watch the First Lady in action


Megs, who writes the blog ‘Wonderful You’, has written a new blog post. Now, the reason this post is in my October Favourites, is that it is written so honestly and sparing no emotion, there was no way I could NOT include it in this segment. Her post, entitled ‘At the Bottom’, tells of her struggles with low mood and a lack of positivity. Her words are beautifully written and Megs has confessed her experience shortly after World Mental Health Day, Monday 10th October 2016. She has inspired people everywhere to dig deep and take a hard look at their emotions; to realise that admitting this struggle is not a sign of weakness. Since reading this and other articles linked to WMHD, I have been able acknowledge my own failings when it comes to anxiety, stress and self-doubt. Please, do not ignore this important recognition. Visit Wonderful You now.



I am loving Essential Oils lately. I have been having a tough time getting to sleep. I suspect that this has a lot to do with my poor emotional state at the minute. However, I have been determined to find a natural sleep-aid. After speaking with a couple of my Endosisters on Twitter, I decided to invest in an oil burner and some essential oils. I started with Rose Geranium as a family friend of mine used to burn it in her hallway, it was so welcoming and uplifting when I went to visit. I have also ordered Lavender as I have found that Lavender pillow sprays have been very good for instantly calming me, but they don’t tend to last more than 10 minutes or so. I’m going to try a few more & will be writing a review in the coming months. Stay tuned!


Now, as you have probably guessed, I am an Instagram enthusiast. Beyond Pinterest, Insta is my next favourite social media platform. I follow some amazing people, from all over the world, seemingly leading extraordinary lives. But out of them all, my October Favourites are: InspiredtoWrite (Amie) and theyellowhairedgirl.

Amie is a writer whose flat-lays and workspace photos are epic. They spur me into action, with a swift kick, falling out of procrastination mode. She updates every day and it’s always different. She inspires, motivates and her photos are a joy to see.



Theyellowhairedgirl is mentioned in this week’s Grazia UK magazine, so the praise for this recommendation should be theirs. Her posts are funny and individual, which every woman can relate to. Excellent work! Thanks, Grazia.



Last on my list this month is from my beauty best-buys. Barry M’s Nail Paint in Masquerade and in Twinkle Twinkle is all the glitter ‘N’ gold you’ll need before the Christmas countdown.

Masquerade is coloured glitter polish with hues of pink, blue and gold. I used this atop my favourite black nail polish (Maybelline’s Color Show in 677 Blackout) and was so happy with the result. It lasted a good week and I got lots of compliments (it seemed to make my nails, or the fact I had some, more noticeable!)

Twinkle Twinkle is a beautifully soft gold polish, almost rose gold. Covers the nail with just one coat, and doesn’t take forever to dry. I love the subtlety of this shade, and how feminine it makes me feel. Less is more with this Nail Paint. However, this Barry M colour is a Limited Edition at Superdrug, so get it while you can! I’ll be going back to stock up!


Hits from September 2016

Top Blog Posts

Superlatively Rude is the virtual child of Laura Jane Williams, author of Becoming. She writes beautifully and with complete honesty, a really engaging read. Can’t wait to read her book, which is due to be released in February 2017. Pre-order HERE.


The Endo The World? is a blog about the chronic illness, Endometriosis. It has been nominated for a WEGO Health Award in the blogging category. You may have seen the author, Claire appear on ITV’s This Morning, tackling the taboo issues of period pain & menstrual leave (you can watch this on her blog). Claire’s posts show some great insights into her life. Worth a read!


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